Mental Health

Boy’s aren’t supposed to cry. I heard this a lot when I was growing up. Hide your feelings is another way of putting it. That’s what I did when I was in middle school through college. No, that’s a lie, I still hide some feelings, but I am way more open now than I used to be. I also put a lot of weight into what other people thought of me, more than what I thought of myself. Now, I know that way of thinking was very damaging to myself in many ways, socially, mentally and physically.

I held my emotions in until I exploded. I remember coming home from middle(?) school one day and writing “I am stupid” tens of times in a single sheet of 8.5×11 single lined paper. I don’t recall the reason why, but I have to assume I thought that “I was stupid”. After that I started to go to therapy every week for a number of months. I can only remover a handful of things that happened, taking an IQ test and forgetting what the Eiffel Tower was called, even though I knew the location and going to the comic store afterwards to get Usagi Yojimbo and TMNT comics.  Continue reading Mental Health

Spartan Race Hurricane Heat HH-073

The gear list for HH-073 said to arrive by 5:15pm for a 6:00pm start. They key here is the be here by 5:15. We started off with Tony telling us to line up in alphabetical order by first name at about 5:30pm. After we were in line, he said, “Now by last name.” We switched and moved to line up by last name. Our wavers were taken and we were told to go to the firewood near the end of the Spartan Race’s Sprint’s finish line. This was about 5:45pm. The 6:00pm start was a misdirection, as we really started at the line up at 5:30. That set the tone for the Hurricane Heat, expect the unexpected and think outside the box. Continue reading Spartan Race Hurricane Heat HH-073

HH-073.. The list has been received..

This morning I received the Mandatory Items list for the upcoming Hurricane Heat, HH-073, this weekend. Out of the required items, I have to pick up 10lbs of canned goods and a sharpie (the one I have isn’t waterproof). I still have yet to get the butterflies, but I’m sure they will hit Friday morning.

Now I just need to memorize the following…

I will always place the mission first.
I will never accept defeat.
I will never quit.
I will never leave a fallen comrade.